I'm not physically tired, it's more an emotional draining
I've learned that my ex-father in law is in the hospital here.
He has emphysema and pneumonia.
He's a tough old thing and could get well enough to go home again.
Here's where I fall apart. Should I go and see him? Should I not?
There was a family gathering years ago, where I was feeling a little humiliated. Probably wrong of me, but I felt it quite keenly at the time and distanced myself emotionally from the family. (K's family; my own family was never close. )
I distanced myself even further when K and I divorced a few years after that.
It's what I do; it's how I cope with emotional pain.
I haven't seen K's parents since that time.
The rift is wide.
20 years wide.
What to do? I kind of feel like I should go and see him, but part of me says why?
Would he even recognise me after all this time?
Would I recognise him?
It's been 20 years. He's 85.
I don't know how long he's been in the hospital, I didn't think to ask.
Go? Don't go?
I'll sleep on it.
No spontaneity until Sunday
2 hours ago