As I leave work each morning, a couple of friends joke with me about coming too.
We laugh and I say, yeah, let's close the shop and have coffee and cake at my place.
We all know that's not going to happen.
I go home alone.
This is fine with me. I like my workmates, 99% of them at least.
But when it comes to having people in my home......well, I like the idea of visitors much more than I do actually having them.
Family members know me well and I know them, so things generally go alright when they visit.
But I'm uncomfortable in situations where I have to make conversation.
If I arrived home from work, settled down and relaxed, then had friends knock on my door for the joked about coffee and cake, I'd be rocked right out of my socks.
I'd be struck dumb, with nothing to say.
There might be a little conversation about how they like my home (or don't like it, everyone is entitled to their opinion), some talk about the family photos on my walls, maybe a few words about work.
but then conversation would dry up, I'd feel uncomfortable and hope they'd leave soon.
So when I casually (jokingly) say coffee and cake at my place in 15 minutes, please just laugh and ignore me.
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